people come and go

yes of course i bet many of u experience this. i just lose two important people in my life, they went overseas and that make me quite lonely now. =( anyway the so called marathon was only 3.5 km and it sucked. I mean many of us complete it about 10 minutes which is quite stupid. and because of that i got no. 10th in place. Its good to get something for the last year of high school. RIght"? But right now after my sister left, i am afraid that i can't study myself.. because usually when she is studying, it will make me study. I feel the laziness in me.. Afraid and fear is also in me,. How? Today is valentines day. I did nothing but wish people. haha *.* i guess that we as form 5 students shud do something for the last year but it seems that today is gone without anything. I only went to 1u just now for a dinner alone. I want to do that because i think that staying at home is so boring and even going out alone is much better. I was stopped by mum becz she thinks that its too far. haihzz. tommorow have 1o hrs of seminar and i almost forgotton. haha. So crack a bottle. i still remember the sad look on sis face, it's defintely something u will never forget as a teen. I hope she enjoy and study at the same time. jt said that his life now is quite messy as he still on his way of getting used to the lifestyle in australia, he said that he is fatter eventhough he runs everyday. wow. Last year, i thought that form 4 is very difficult but it turns out that form 5 is like millions times harder than last year. I desperately need support. No GF. No games . can but not too much. GIve some time for guitar. Never let ur emotions drive u nuts. OK? I hate to do this but this is the only way. now that i have completed kumon i felt something is missing in my life. and is the determination. i Think that i wil do a determine thing in my room.