That day was fun..

It was one week ago ,Sports day. I still can't believe i nailed the 4x400 meter dash. At least i have a silver medal especially my last year. Jim oso came for fun because he said that he had nothing to do while waiting for Jun. I drank 3 and 1/2 can of isotonic drink because i thought that i need lots of energy. It was the last event and i knew that i would be tired because it starts at 11.15 am. The weather was very good. I went to centerpoint for lunch alone because no one would want to go. So i stopped by in Subway and ate a 6 inch sandwitch then mark and some friends came by and joined me, that made me feel better. Then i called for another 6 inch sandwitch. It was yummy for my tummy even it was a little pricy. I went home and play some game and got ready for my trip to Penang for ching ming. I went down after Perfection tuition at around 9 pm. I slept most of the journey because i was so tired. I want to focus more on my studies as i didnt during the sport week. Later i hace swimming with jt which i don't think that is possible because the storm is coming... Here is some pictures 

Now i know,

yea i've been expecting this week to be the toughest week ever and it really happened.

One thing that sucks but its that i can't join in any event i felt suck at the same time because i really do suck and people seems to take this not seriously which is totally not my way of seeing this. I hate it so much when i experience this kind of feeling. 

So.. days are passing by real fast.. because its been almost 2 months since jt is in australia. He doesnt seem that he's having major problems there and already get used to the lifestlye there. Oh ya , my add math at first it was 68 and it worried me and then after changes it became 70. It's just nice an A2 which is "phew" because i havent get a B in my add math subject b4 since std 5 till now... I just love the joke around in class it make me and my friends feel good but sometimes i overeacted and go crazy. someone just arghhhhh outside my house , kinda scared me a little because i alone in this house. the security bike just passed by and nothing happen so i felt relief. Jian, i hope that i can follow ur advises and be successful like u. Thanks. Now i am just waiting for dad to come home from China, he arrived from airport like 20 minutes ago so he will reach anytime right now. My face is so oily . Ok need to go now.. mum home..

Shud i do something big or maintain... ?

First of all, I dun really understand josh lm attitude man.. He kinda push me to aside today.. Bloody. Nvm la.. I think that my life is satisfy unless my this exam is good. By the way, My first term exam is gonna be shit because suck preparation and careless feeling just filled me. I think i had changed a lot. I want the same acheivement and enthusiasm i had during my last year's final exam. I am afraid my result is depressing. Maybe depressing is good so i would study harder 4 mid year but i shuddn't think too far because it's really too far. Exam's next week. Jt just finish his 'small exam' today so.. Sukan tara haha theres one girl in form 1 said sukan terror. Nice.. 

ROCK ON!

Let's break it down

Alright so my sister just moved to adelaide one week ago and she is starting to get used to lifestyle there , so is my great friend, jt . It is really clearly that he is also starting to kick in that java. What about me? It's like 

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Everybody's changing and i don't feel the same. 

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I kinda envy the life that most of my friends are having now not including jt, two years ago.. 3B. It is a year of being in the same class as the chinese and fun-going friends. Good thing is sitting near them but sadly i can't get going with them because of not participating in their band and language. As a matter of fact, my chinese is not fluent and that takes me further away from them. Then, i move to 5B. The year of being in the same class as the english and another fun-going friends. Sab kick in and joined them because i can see that she desperately need some friends that she can always spend time with. And after visiting kp's blog.. i am jealous. Most of it is my fault, i dont sit with them , i don't act the way like them, for example josh lm is always pushing me to a fking side. Ok i after thinking twice for a moment... i realise that need not to be in that group.... Remember FOCUS. At last , i feel that i just need settle down. =$

people come and go

yes of course i bet many of u experience this. i just lose two important people in my life, they went overseas and that make me quite lonely now. =( anyway the so called marathon was only 3.5 km and it sucked. I mean many of us complete it about 10 minutes which is quite stupid. and because of that i got no. 10th in place. Its good to get something for the last year of high school. RIght"? But right now after my sister left, i am afraid that i can't study myself.. because usually when she is studying, it will make me study. I feel the laziness in me.. Afraid and fear is also in me,. How? Today is valentines day. I did nothing but wish people. haha *.* i guess that we as form 5 students shud do something for the last year but it seems that today is gone without anything. I only went to 1u just now for a dinner alone. I want to do that because i think that staying at home is so boring and even going out alone is much better. I was stopped by mum becz she thinks that its too far. haihzz. tommorow have 1o hrs of seminar and i almost forgotton. haha. So crack a bottle. i still remember the sad look on sis face, it's defintely something u will never forget as a teen. I hope she enjoy and study at the same time. jt said that his life now is quite messy as he still on his way of getting used to the lifestyle in australia, he said that he is fatter eventhough he runs everyday. wow. Last year, i thought that form 4 is very difficult but it turns out that form 5 is like millions times harder than last year. I desperately need support. No GF. No games . can but not too much. GIve some time for guitar. Never let ur emotions drive u nuts. OK? I hate to do this but this is the only way. now that i have completed kumon i felt something is missing in my life. and is the determination. i Think that i wil do a determine thing in my room. 

Yesterday.

Cik F. class. chemistry. uhh so not what i expected. She changed my seat in the lab and it is so bad. Just can't imagine i'll be sitting there for 1 year. The experiment also went so bad that i know she would deduct my marks right away and the result was terrible too. I mean datin t. change to cik f. is really bad and changing my seat is like the worst of all. It's like she think that i am too smart for anything but truth is i'm not. I am those who had to work hard and not smart. Well, at least the IRC class is starting soon.
The whole week is pretty hectic. Rumah sukan, i wish i had more thing to do. I wish that people know that i can do things and more potential. Well, sains and maths, i can even get something even i am not in the meeting. And, wu shu cancelled cuz it's starting on february. I felt that i had taken a step back in my studies i must build up more perseverance and enthusiasm. i must.

And Oh ya, i and iv. bought something for jt cuz he's going away really soon. Besides, he had contributed many things to my family. After giving him that present, i felt enlighten, even i don't know what does that mean. But, it just feels like saying that cuz the situation and the feeling says it. We gave him this :

the jacket is not exactly like in the picture because it's not MU, just nike. and the pen, it's penac from JaPAn. it multifunctional pen.

Right now, i'm still kinda sick. just feels like tonight. grandfather is still in hospital because he had a bike accident and fell into drain again. Just wish he's ok and gets well soon. =D

OH, WHy? Lost in Badminton.

Come on, this is the last year. >.< CAn't u give me a chance, smk la salle? haihz, ok la nvm tmr got BIO, BM ,add math , sej , math. Truth is : they are strong but i thought that we are quite competitive with them at first because they did quite many mistakes too. Haha finally i get to see patrick, he is much taller and quiter but i feel he is quite arrogant. OUCH. Felt disappointed and less motivated but lucky that pn azl is back to teach us math. I felt more comfortable and easier. sad that i just missed her single lesson just now. Also, i can't believe that i still can get naib. p. for science and maths club. =D and i still made it to rumah sukan. Today is so tired, have to wait from 8 to 3. 15pm only the match starts. weee =-D. By the way, smk la salle food is better than ours. I hate it when i lost in the match and is the last match in the hall for the day. It kills me for a moment. Anyway i saw the perfection dude in MSSD. Haha. Ok chaoz.

Have So much things to write!!!

OK, wow. Today sucks and rocks, it's like mixing everything. This year choosing rumah sukan is more scary. the teacher already have her decision on her hand! so it's like this ... i am naib which i felt more comfortable because just see what the ex. done. most of the task is done by ketua. And the ex. ketua is here too! =D She was working in book store and she came to check out. But this time i fully realise that sab. has so many liker especially that kj and vic and zac. come on! she's hot. i can tell u that she has at least 7 liker in the class. Haha if i think back last year when she move into our school, kj and other guys was like she is 'amo'. LOl and they think that she is normal only. Even i said that eventhough i have that feeling inside me.. arghh have to do the first karangan in this year. later got tuition. Anyway i shudn't care just like how the way i did. She is like the center of the attraction in class. badminton cut down to abt 200 only 4 this year. squeeze and squeeze like mad cow haha. today is the first time i spent so much time with ss. ... still she haven changed. haizz. I know that the future days or months is gonna be so much tougher. ohya i went high during physics and wanted to make a new club called rock band with wei xin and yu beng. But i kinda chicken o0ut and the end . Tough day but worth it. I know i must grow stronger. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee . no stop it. =D

2009 here i come

What went well is my birthday, my friends celebrated my b'day without my knowledge, it was kinda like a surprise. It went like this... i was in my friend house celebrating the end of the year with a few other families the night before. We were all upstairs, u know just hanging out while my aunt is preparing something for me. She then came upstairs and said yi han we hav something for u. =D haha and then i soon found out that i wasn't the only 'victim', i had another two uncles whose b'day is that day and the day b4 respectively. So there u go, 28,29,30. isn't that great coincidence or faith? Haha.

My new year and christmas was just fine.

Today today today..... haiz.......... honestly, i expected that they would reshuffle the science class but they only did a minor one. One from my class transfered to upper class while two student went oppositely. Why? Why? Teacher said : " Alright the name i call will go to A class, XXX" and then i was hoping somemore... but that's the end and immediately i felt it. But after a few moment i came to realized that it's ok. All i have to do is focus. However, i wasn't as motivated as like last year. I wished i was. It is the motivation that keeps me going consistently with sense of great enthusiasm. But i know too much aint good just like what happened in my previous final exam. Well i know that the zodiac is right, this is a tough year. '09 sounds so moden and strong. Oh gosh if this year i suck i really have nothing to say because this is the final year and there's no turning back. ALLLITE. chaoz.